Truth is, I’ll wait for you forever. I can no longer show you I care. I can’t let you see that I am weak. I’m holding on to the last string of our rope we strung…. please don’t let me fall. I’ve given you space and will continue to do so. I’ll give you time, but I’m scared that I will heal during that time.. I’m in love. I’m sure of what I want. I know that regardless of how much pain and tears, we will make it through. I’ve never given up on you…….. Why would you give up on me? You said you’d die for me.. Why won’t you live for me? You told me you loved me… Why won’t you love me? It pains my heart to see you reply to other men and not me. Why have you not posted one thing about me? Why can you talk to him and not I? I can’t even remember the last time I saw you smile.. You won’t look me in my eyes. Am I some kind of criminal? I can’t give you the world but I can give you mine… Isn’t that what you wanted? Now take it…. Accept it… Care for me like I care for you.. Fall for actions, not words… Please allow me to fall… Catch me. I’m not sure what’s on your mind right now but as badly as I want to just call you or text you.. I won’t. You reply to me with such animosity. I’ve grown to become a stranger to you. Why can they get a heart and a smile but I can’t get eye contact..? Are you ashamed of me..? Is it the marijuana that forces you to act this way…..? I need answers.. I need a conclusion… and I need it soon…. I’m slipping…. Please.. save me. I don’t have abs.. I don’t have great hair… I don’t have tattoos…. but I have a heart that loves you. Please stop abusing it… I’m waiting for you to text me.. call me… Give me a sign….. but as the hours linger on and the days pass by…. my heart grows weaker… I just want my baby back. No stress….. Please God… make this right.
